Thursday, August 4, 2016

I can't do this anymore

I said these five words to my husband the other day.

I have been thinking. I only remember saying these five words two other times in my life.

One when I was in labour with my son.

The other when I was camping with my Grade Six class.

I said I couldn't. But I did. I did deliver my son, albeit with some medical intervention.

I did finish the camping trip with my class, and went on to continue with that class until they graduated two years later.

But this this?

I really can't do it anymore.

I have had a headache on and off for over a week, but today it is very very bad. And the headache isn't even the this I am dealing with.

I can't make decisions.

I can't not make decisions.

I just wish I was on a little island, lying in the sun, swimming in the salt water.

This headache is so bad the side of my face feels numb.

That can't be good.

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Two days later and still the headache.

Maybe if it goes away I can deal with this.

Maybe this is why I have a headache.

Catch 22?

Chicken or Egg?

Doesn't really matter.

Because.

I am not giving up.

I can do this.



17 comments:

  1. I hope the headache is gone soon. You can get through it. *hugs*

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  2. My prayers are for you! Headaches are awful. Colds stink. When we are trying to live with big decisions, our bodies crap out on us. At least mine does. I have a great doctor . That helps. YOU can do this. ONe hour at a time right now. Just that much.

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    1. yes. thank you. one hour at a time...maybe even one half hour at a time.

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    1. I went to chiro yesterday - it is easing.

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  4. Oh goodness that's hard. But I agree with Linda, maybe it's time to speak to your doctor if it's not going away. I hope by now it's easing.

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    1. Chiro helped - saw me thanks to a cancellation yesterday.

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  5. You CAN do this. We are here to help you get through it. You CAN do this, you are strong. Kick it out of the field.

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    1. Thank you so much for the support. I think the headache is easing and we did make a decision yesterday - so baby steps - but progress.

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  6. I know those words... Too well...
    Share the pain. Xx

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    1. where is the pinot grigio when you need it - lol - although I can't drink wine with headaches like this one. Only makes matters worse. Today it is a little better. I have faith it is on its way out and then I can deal with the other stuff.

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  7. I hope it soon goes, it sounds horrendous. Sending you hugs xx

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    1. Thanks Judy. I have been reading all your posts too. Glad things are going well for you.

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  8. Sending good thoughts your way!

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    1. Thank you. They are gratefully received.

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  9. Sorry to learn you were suffering during August. I haven't been online for much of August because everything was overwhelming me and I had other pressing demands on my attention. For a lot of August I felt like I wanted to just withdraw and hide from the world until everything slowed down, except I wasn't suffering a major headache like yours. How horrid for you. Maybe August was the month of testing everyone. Now it is September, the pace is more even and the sun is coming out with the new spring season here. I'm happy to see your later posts with no more headache and fun adventures. Take care.

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