I have been having A LOT of anxiety dreams lately.
The kind where you wake up and
a) it takes you a while to convince yourself it was 'just a dream', and
b) your stomach is in a total anxiety knot that takes a few hours to calm the fuck down.
Today's morning dream was:
a: a derelict car (that was mine although I would never drive anything that big) was laying across the road in front of our house blocking traffic.
b: some guy had taken a chain saw to all our trees on the north side of our house, and I kept trying to get his name but couldn't quite make it out.
c: our sump pump (which we don't have) was bubbling up this oozy brown gunky water and the neighbour's grand-daughter was playing in it.
d: the neighbour's son, reached into the ooze and pulled out some weird cog thing and said I needed to replace it and put it all back together (like I would know how to do that).
e: for some reason there was a toilet in my carport that I was sitting on as the neighbours all came over to see what all the commotion was about, and this young boy, who I mistook for my son, was trying to sell me a silver star pin for three dollars. I bought it (after I got off the toilet).
f: I whole bunch of people arrived in my carport trying to give me the pieces of a game that I was planning to re-tool and market. What?
g: I wanted to call the police to report this guy for cutting down my trees, but people kept interfering with me making the call.
h: I noticed, now that the trees were gone, that I had an upstairs to my house I didn't know about and the one half of the shutters were a different colour (pink) than the other half (brown). I knew this was going to be an issue for my neighbours across the street.
i: The dream ended with me saying - 'that's it, we are selling', and my retired real estate agent neighbour saying - 'you probably don't want to do that with your house being as run down as it is'. Ya think? What with the derelict car, broken sump pump, open toilet and hacked off trees?
I might have been dreaming, but I am not stupid.
So that is how my day has started.
In reality, my washing machine is broken.
So, there's that.